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Why you still living when you don't even feel alive anymore?

That's a question that I don't know the answer. But if I think about it, yeah. Why do I keep living when I don't feel alive at all?

I don't know why, I just don't care about my life. A truck could hit me dead and I don't give a damn at all. Of course I have desire, some things that I want. But what's the point when all of it just a dream? Don't start with "Anything is possible if you try" bullshit. I know what I'm capable of. And it's impossible because... Well, just impossible. I'm not gonna tell you what thing, because I know the limit.

And for all of my life... I don't regret everything that already happened. But I do disappointed for every thing that didn't happen. I just wish there's a chance for me to get it...

I hope this not gonna be my last post... But not that I cared anyway...

But I do want to say thank you to some people who really gave me some... Dream? Well, they are celebrities, only three of them. And I'm not a fan or anything, just really grateful that I could see them (not know them). So I'll just say thanks to them here. Thank you to three celebrities that gave me something to hold on, even if just a dream. Well, maybe not that long to hold on, so I'm just saying thanks here in case I could never say thanks directly.

Reading novel could be the suckiest thing

Well hey there fellow novel lovers. I don't mean to insult, but just want to share something.

I loved novel, fiction novel only. You know why? Coz we lived in boring world - Not
that I want war or didn't like the peace we have now, it's just... After reading The Maze Runner, I felt like I was thrown into those world, finding things that I really love. It's so awesome that I felt I lived there, having journey with the character from the novel.

Then I finished reading the book, now all of those imaginations are gone. All those adventures, exciting life, gone just like that. Now I have to go back to reality where I live like robot. Work, eat, sleep. Nothing else... The stories really gave me some things that I want : Friendship, adventure... Here, in this world? I'm not even sure who could I trust. Maybe I should just kill myself, who knows I could get to the other world?

Just kidding, only on the kill myself part... Well, I don't see the point on this post, just want to share something. I just finished The Maze Runner trilogy and now I'm feeling empty, dark as a black hole...

My novel

Hey guys. I hope anyone reading this, because I really want to make something, something fun. I'm going to make a novel! The problem is, I can't seem to think a good story plot. I thought some plots, but I don't know if it's interesting enough. Okay, I'll tell you some of it. I hope anyone who read it can give me a feed back so I know what kind of novel that interesting to be read.

First plot, this is a story that already in progress, just want to know if people will be interested. It's a story about people who live in a town, surrounded by big wall. Outside the wall there are lot of creatures, animals mutated by some kind of virus. That's the main plot.

Second! Story about war between human and android, human want to destroy android and android want to enslave human. The main characters is a human who befriended with an android that develop human feelings. I hope that's interesting.

The third one is about a virus that turns human into some weird mutated creature. The virus is inside fog, smoke, or mist that always come from sunset until dawn. The creator is a doctor who doing experiment on human. The survivors holed up in a town surrounded by big wall that the smoke, fog, or mist can't reach it.

Okay, that's three plot that I could think of. If you're wondering why there's two plots with big wall, that's because I just watched the Maze Runner andit's really interesting! Yeah, I got inspired by that (or yes, you could say I imitating it). So? Does any of it sounds interesting? Or all of it just a big garbage?