Why you still living when you don't even feel alive anymore?
That's a question that I don't know the answer. But if I think about it, yeah. Why do I keep living when I don't feel alive at all?
I don't know why, I just don't care about my life. A truck could hit me dead and I don't give a damn at all. Of course I have desire, some things that I want. But what's the point when all of it just a dream? Don't start with "Anything is possible if you try" bullshit. I know what I'm capable of. And it's impossible because... Well, just impossible. I'm not gonna tell you what thing, because I know the limit.
And for all of my life... I don't regret everything that already happened. But I do disappointed for every thing that didn't happen. I just wish there's a chance for me to get it...
I hope this not gonna be my last post... But not that I cared anyway...
But I do want to say thank you to some people who really gave me some... Dream? Well, they are celebrities, only three of them. And I'm not a fan or anything, just really grateful that I could see them (not know them). So I'll just say thanks to them here. Thank you to three celebrities that gave me something to hold on, even if just a dream. Well, maybe not that long to hold on, so I'm just saying thanks here in case I could never say thanks directly.